I'm Better Now-Sorta

       Hello friends, if I have any after my last rant and rave. I know and now you know when I'm hurt I get angry, it's the way I deal with hurt. I'm not saying it's right I'm just saying its how I deal.
      I'm just so tired of being hurt and lied to. I don't understand I would never do that to someone let alone a friend. Are friendships so easy to come by that people can just throw them away like that? And why when something good happens do some people have to hurt you because of it?


     I don't have the answer to these questions, there probably aren't answers. I refuse to get bitter about it and be afraid to trust people again. I will not become that person. I will keep people like that out of my life.

         So forgive me my friends for my little tirade earlier I'm sorry to have acted that way. Just because someone hurts me doesn't mean I should take it out on you, after all that's why I have the forum! Until we meet again.......

I'll Get Over It

     Hello friends, I really should not be bratty like I was yesterday, it looks bad when I'm trying to get people to join Women to Women then to sound like a banshee. I honestly don't know what was wrong with me. I think I'm just tired of people saying one thing and then doing another. I hate being lied to. I hate it when someone takes the easy way out, and I'm tired of being there for someone and then when I need back up their not there.
     Here I go again, I wish I could be one of those people who are happy, happy, happy all the time. I wish I could be all smiles and sunshine, say fake baby words, all arty and fake. I just can't. Not even if it meant making money off it.
      Life suck sometimes, it just does, and when it does I don't need someone to say "Tomorrow will be better" well duh, I know that I'm not in a hole. What I want is someone to listen to me rant and rave and let me get it all out, not tell me shit I already know or to draw a picture and everything will be all right.
       Why is it everyone wants to hear all that fake crap? And if that person really meant it why make you pay for it?
       Damn I am on a roll today, sorry, this so not the way to get followers, though I like real and not fake. On the other hand I do love the followers I already have so if no one else follows tough, their loss.

       I'm sorry. I'm really hurt by someone I thought was a friend and one of the reasons I started the Woman to Woman forum, and then to find out she's not backing me up. I'll get over it, I always do. Sorry to you who normally read my blog if I'm being to bitchy.

Rude people!

        Hello friends, OK I can admit, I'm not always a nice person, I'm not always tact, I will tell it like I see it weather you like it or not and yes I can be a bitch, back me into a corner and I'm down right mean. But never ever am I mean to waitresses(and not just cause I've been one), or gas station attendants or any other job like that.
      Cause lets face it there not the funnest jobs to start with, they have no control over the rules, usually hard work for little pay, AND they have to deal with assholes all day. 
       Today this woman was yelling at the poor girl behind the cash register, and why? Because of the GAS prices! Seriously! As if this poorly paid girl has anything to do with that! Really! Oh I'm wrong, yes she put the price up on the board! The price she's told to put!
Really did that woman really think that girl wants the prices that high? Honest to SHIT I almost hit her, I Did tell her to be quiet-OK I told her to SHUT-UP and leave that poor girl a lone.
        It just makes me so angry when people are mean to people, let alone that girl-as if she could defend herself and not lose her job. crazy bitchy woman.

        Ya you guessed I'm not in the best moods today, between test, and getting taxes finally one I'm just in a bitchy mood- I should probably stay off here when I feel this way! I won't even tell you what an ASSHOLE my husband has been today, make a comment about me being on the computer to much- well ya dumb-ass my job is on here, my school is on here- its not like I'm on here playing games! 
      Bitchy much huh?(deep breath) maybe if he would take some of the responsibilities off my shoulders and do it- and don't say your going to do something if your not. I understand that everyone forgets shit but not every day. We can't all go runny away to mom mys when shit gets hard or the kids will be raising themselves.
     So I took off my human verification on here and had no problems for the most part, I also had it so you could be anonymous but had to take that off, not because of spam but because someone keeps leaving sex shit on there-gross. As if anyone would think its a turn on to be talked dirty to by someone you don't even know. What they though I'd get excited and text them back saying "Oh ya baby let's meet" Really?

  I should get off here before I piss you all off with my attitude! I will work on getting my niceness back before we meet again.....

A Day in My Life

        Hello friends,  I had tests all morning! Why does that wear me out so, maybe it just proves I need to use my brain more! So as a reward I went to Wal-Mart and got cleaning supplies it's time to do spring cleaning! Fun, well not fun but it feels good when it's all done and shiny clean-at least until the kids get home!
       I had to make Doctors appointments, Brock is really sick and Gloria came home from school saying she was having a hard time breathing, we did a breathing treatment on her and she's in bed resting but I can hear it coming, funny how that is that I know it(her being sick) before it gets bad. Veronica is sick too, hers like Brock are head colds. Problem with Gloria is she can go from just not feeling good to we're in the hospital again like a flash.
       I was reading a blog today-yes during English- and the blogger was talking about feeling guilty about passing down her Bipolar to her daughter. I tried to make her feel better, I hope I succeeded. I understand how she feels, I understand guilt, believe me I do.
       I have had my share: over both my girls having Arthritis, Gloria's having that and I.B.S, and Asthma, and everything she's had to go through, hell twenty years ago when we found out about Jon's Autism/Asperger's it
was assumed it was the mother's fault.
      This is what I've come to realize in my old age: guilt gets you no where, and it doesn't fix anything. After all would I not have had them if I knew in advance that they would be born this way? I don't honestly know, I do know that every single person has a purpose in this life/world we just have to figure out what that purpose is, that's the hard part. Maybe that's what friends and family are for, to help you see yourself as they see you.


      I had someone leave me a message about Woman to Woman and she said she had belonged to a group like that before where it ended up becoming very catty and with a bunch of know it all. I will not let that happen, I will be the first to admit I don't know it all. I'm not afraid to ask for help and I would never ever put up with know it all or cattiness( is that a word? Is now I guess).
     Thats one of the reasons I have FoxyMoron, YellowDog Granny and Intricate Knott there helping me too, I can't always be there and I don't want any one to feel alone--Also if they see me fuck up or not acting the way I should they will let me know and not nicely either!
     I hope that's reassuring to you. Also I have it so that any one on the forum can get a hold of me if they need to and for the most part it's you the member's who start the topic's to talk about. Well I better go take care of my sick kids. Until we meet again........

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Beautiful Day for Bridget

      Hello friend, it was so beautiful outside today, the sun was shining and almost 70 degree's, Sunday it snowed! this weather here is crazy! It was so pretty I went outside and sat in my spot and just chilled. It's to wet to walk in the woods. I was sitting out there and trying to send some healing love and thoughts to the Grandmother in the town where the tornado went though remember the picture I posted?
     Well apparently a mom, dad and three children under three where in that car that was picked up and dropped ten miles down the road. The only survivor was the two year old, and she died Saturday. So that poor woman lost her daughter(21) and her son in law (20) and all three of her grandchildren. I just can't imagine the pain she's going through. They didn't tell us her name.
      It was so pretty today I just felt or wanted to feel like everything was going to be good, how could it not on such a glorious day?
     Ya right this is my life we're talking about. Brock woke up sick and I got a text from Gloria to come to the school. A boy took her compass and she took it back and I guess he didn't like that(he's a new kid) he got in her face and started  yelling and cussing. She turned her back on him and walked away. The teacher sent them both to the principles office.
    She called me to soon cause she wasn't in trouble, but not until I got there did I find that out! She's at a Spelling Bowl now, she won't admit it but she's so proud of herself, I'm so proud of her too.
     OK I know that to most of you this won't mean anything but to the few who have been here since the beginning and know what she's gone through this will.
     Gloria's got a boyfriend! It's Kyle, her once friend that stood by her while she went through hell and was mean to all of us, he took it, he let her say anything. He was always understanding of her and made excuses for her behavior. I got pictures!

       OK not the worlds best pictures. And I know their young, I'm excited cause I think this means she's getting better. Starting to trust again, to feel. I was so afraid she would never trust again.
        So we just celebrated Imbolic on last Wednesday and according to legends if it's nice out Bridget wakes up and get's more wood and winter last until the wood runs out. Here it was 70's. I really hope she gets up and enjoys the sunshine. I was glad it was nice last Wednesday for Gloria's birthday but I'm over the weather here. Everyone getting sick cause one day nice the next day freezi

     I told you Brock is sick, normally his eyes are grey but when he's sick their like this blue-green color-so beautiful. You can't really see it, I wish you could.
     My this blog was boring today! Sorry it was a pretty good day! I passed my midterm in math, three more test Thursday. The day was pretty, and I think I got all the bugs out of Woman to Woman and there's twelve of us now, hopefully more soon.
      Just remember there's no shame in needing someone to talk to, and even if your life is "perfect" having a group of women around you is always good.

   
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              Until we meet again..............

Thinking about Woman to Woman

       Hello friends, I hope you had a good weekend, mine wasn't to bad. Busy, but whats new about that huh? I also worked on Woman to Woman. Got the signing in bugs taken care of now just wondering how to get the word out.
     This is the new button I made for it, not the greatest but will do til I figure out something better!

     Now the question becomes do we advertise? How do we let women know about it? I'm afraid it's just going to sit there and not be used. Maybe this wasn't the best idea I've ever had. I just wanted a place where women can go and feel safe and supported.
    I wanted a place where we could be our real selves and not have to hide parts of our self's. Does this make sense? Do you ever feel you have to hide apart of yourself, even from your loved ones? Or is that just me?
I've gone through things where I needed to talk but didn't want to burden my friends or family. Where everyone expected me to be strong but I just needed to let it out.
    If you need a place to go and be heard Woman to Woman is for you. It's not  just for major problems, it's for day to day problems, or anything else you might want to share. We're here and we care.

     Please know there are people who care and want to help you, you are not alone. Just go to http://woman2woman.freeforums.org register and sign up. Hope to see you there!

     I didn't want this to sound like an advertisement, but I do want whoever needs this to find it, if you know someone who could use the help please pass this on.


 

Sunday's Funny's

        Hello friends, welcome to Sunday funny's. This is the second half of the Maxine jokes my mom sent me awhile back, and then some pee your pants funny pictures. I hope this brings a smile to all your faces and don't forget to check out Woman to Woman.

      Well I hope this brings a smile to your face, maybe help you get  through Monday, remember if you ever need to talk we're here at Woman to Woman. Until we meet again.......


      I DID IT!!!! I FIGURED OUT WHAT I WAS DOING WRONG! So those of you who have been having trouble getting in you should be able to now! And we're back to being a secure site! Yippee!