Love Me, Hate Me, Your Choice

     Hello friends, once again I have my husbands family hurt me, why do I let what they say hurt my feelings? Me who believes that if someone is bad for keep them away from you. But damn it hurts when you hear they  talk about you behind your back! I've done so much for them. I'm tired of dealing with all of their shit, I'm tired of being hurt.
    I'm mad and hurt but you know what? I'm mostly mad at myself. Why do I have this need to prove to everyone that I worthy of being treated right?That I'm good and loveable? Seriously one can only blame their parents for so long before you have to take responsibility for your own life.
    I try never to hurt anyone with my words or actions, I know I'm sensitive to other peoples feelings and emotions. On the other hand I know I can be bitchy and don't put up with peoples shit. And I really don't do well when people bitch and complain about the same thing over and over again. Either fix it or stop whining, I even say that to myself.
    So here's the facts: No one can make you feel bad,hurt, angry etc unless you allow them to. And I'll be damned if I let them make me feel bad about myself any longer. Not everyone is going to like me, and that's OK cause I don't like everyone either. And though I would like not to ever see them again it's not possible because of my husband. I can control how they treat me, I will not allow any one to treat me bad.
   Now about the blog hop I think it's a really cool idea, if your doing it to meet new people and really like their blog, but I don't get doing it just to get more follower's, cause just because they put their name on your blog doesn't mean they'll come back and read it or comment on it. so whats the  point?
   If I follow you then I will be reading your blog. And I really can't stand it when someone just leaves their URL and that's it. Um I won't be following you. I take the time to read at least two of yours and leave you a well thought of comment. I want to know who I'm following. I want to know you, not just your name.

    I think the bottom line is, I can't and won't let what others think and say about me effect how I feel about myself. They don't know me, they don't know what my life is about, the people I help the things I do.

    Enough already! On IN MY GARDEN I finally wrote the second half of ground covers. I would love any suggestions for an article or questions you might have. Don't forget tomorrow is Sunday Funny's day! Have a good weekend everyone! Until we meet again............