Thursday, April 5, 2012

Life isn't right

     I haven't wrote for awhile maybe I just didn't know what to say.  My business and forum are going well. My life on the other hand, well it sucks. I'm stuck where I am right now being abused verbally. I can't do anything about it until I have enough money to support my kids and myself on my own.
   I'm afraid to talk about it cause I am afraid I'll start crying and won't be able to stop. I need something good to happen in my life.
    Why can't there be fairy god mothers in real life? Why can't there be magic wands, or help?  

7 comments:

insomnia said...

Have you thought of reverse verbal abuse? My ex told me I verbally abused him so I googled it. Turns out I did, so I started physically abusing his stupid ass. Then it turned all kind of mean and dysfunctional. Great summer fun I tell you.

Intricate Knot said...

I'm so sorry, Natalie. I've been in a situation similar in the past and it was horrible. I wish I had a magic wand for you. I will say this, you're a strong lady, with heart and talents. You will get through this. Please keep venting. xo

SugarMama said...

Hugs.
I hope you're able to get the help you need very soon. Is there a local shelter that could help? Sorry you're dealing with this.

My name WAS Female, I shit you not! said...

I too have been caught between a Rock and a Hard Place at different times in my life. SUX!
There are no easy answers. Each of us finds our way to meet each challenge in life in different ways and time.

While the verbal abuse hasn't completely stopped for me, I DO let hubby know that I don't appreciate his words instead of keeping it ALL INTERNAL, as was my former way. That little bit of difference has empowered me.Doormats are never appreciated!
So hon, continue to vent here. Getting things out...does help even if we don't have all the answers to give you. (((hugs)))Pat

Anna Smith said...

Oh huny sorry you're feeling this way. I'm sending some positive vibes and hugs your way, hope it helps :)

YELLOWDOG GRANNY said...

believe it or not..been there..when I married my first husband Bob we were both kids..I was 16 he was 19..he was 'daddy'..he told me what to do when to do it and if I did it wrong I was 'stupid'...this when on for 7 years..then one day I snapped..I said you know what ?..your right..I am stupid..for 7 years you've verbally abused me and called me stupid..and I was..stupid for staying and putting up with it..well no more..pack your shit and get ...I had a 2 year old and a 4month old..I had never worked before..he said you can't make it on your own..you'll come crawling back to me begging to take me back..I said I'd rather be dead..I went to a place called the Palm Gardens..the boss interviewed me..I had no experience at anything..I didn't know a shot of booze from a draft beer..when he said he didn't think it would work, I started crying I said I was desperate and needed a job..I was smart and a fast learner and I'd be the most loyal employee he ever had..he hired me and after I got learned about being a waitress I went to a beer tavern and got a job working days..and then I found a job as a model for a sports clothing line..and one day a week I did that, and I got a job for 4 hours a week being a nude model for an art school..and one night a week being a gogo dancer(kept my clothes on)...after about a year I had enough money saved taht I could take one job and take care of us..it wasn't easy..it was hard..I cried a lot..I didn't see a lot of my kids for a while..but I did it..and I never went back to the asshole. but I thank him...cause he made me who I am today..a woman who takes care of her ownself.

FoxyMoron said...

So sorry Nat, I know just what you're going through, why can men be so horrible? They just don't get it.
Sending big hugs from me.