No More Jello!

        Hello friends, I have come to realize, not for the first time mind you, that I just can not keep going on this way. That some how through all the shit that has happened this last year or so that I somehow lost ME and all the hard work in my past to get over he abuse and become strong person hasn't been lost so much as pushed aside and neglected. I haven't had time to care for myself.
      That is all changing now. I went to the Doctor and found out what was wrong with me (No iron, no calcium, no iodine). Basically I have got nothing in me to support my body-no wonder why it has been feeling like I'm walking through jello. I haven't been eating at sometimes for days, I never get hungry. So the Doctor gave me some meds to make me be hungry and I got iron pills etc. I started taking them Friday and honestly I'm feeling better already. I have even ate today! We talked about depression and I'm still don't think I am and neither does she, just to much stress.
        What I learned from this is that I was doing my husband a great injustice by trying to handle everything and trying to protect him. He wants to deal with some of this. So woo life should calm down now. Maybe? Don't know we'll see.
      Enough about me I got this message yesterday and since I don't know how to get in touch with this person I'm going to answer it here.

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       Maria I want you to know I appreciate your comment and that you are free to leave me any messages you want any time you want. Your English is fine. Don't apologize for it, you speak two languages I don't so you are way ahead of me. And if you do write a blog I would love to read it. Every person has a story to tell and all have something we can learn from. Everyone is welcomed in my blog world as long as their not hurting anyone else. So please contact me again and let me know if you have a blog and how to find it.
          I am so not one of those bloggers that think if your not in my click that I don't want to hear from you or read your blogs. I don't have a click--what is this high school? I respect everyone, as long as they respect others, and believe everyone has a right to their own opinions and beliefs.
       Yesterday I met this really great lady named Umari Ayim. I talked her her over ay Cyber Connect(where I'm featured this week, how cool is that?) She's from Africa, is a lawyer and so smart. That's one of the coolest things about blogging you get to meet people you never would in the' real' world.
       When I started blogging I only did it so I could put in words the pain that was in my heart, I needed to get it out. I never thought I would find the support and friendship that I did. I will always be grateful for Trish,Pat and Jackie who would leave comments that were never judging and always supportive and kind. Now if only the real world could always be this way.

      Thank you all how have me comments this week, and I hope this blog wasn't to much of a downer, so until we meet again.......

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Sleeping Beauty? Naw just me Natalie!

       All I have done today is sleep and laundry oh and just took a test that I wasn't prepared for enough! The test had to be done by five, less sleep and more studying is what I should have done but oh well a B will have to do! I have slept so much and when awake I ate and ate a lot! Carbs! People I ate a lot of carbs, so not like me.I try so very hard to stay a way from them but today nope! Ate them with out any guilt, I didn't fix supper either, let the brats fend for themselves, it's not like there's no food in there, cause there is they of course won't fix themselves the good for you food, they will eat junk. Oh well they will survive. My excuse for eating like a piggy today is it's very cold outside and getting colder we're under weather warnings. Sounds good to me, even though Rick asked if I was pregnant eating like I was, oh f you is what I said and that I was pretending to be him! Sometimes he needs to keep his mouth shut! It's not like this is normal for me!
        OK, I want to talk serious for a second, I think I'm going to shut down my other two site's or just add them to this one as pages but with out the ads. I want to concentrate more on this new business, which in the end will help so many women. Even a few of you. So what do you think? I won't feel so much pressure to come up with articles etc. As it looks now the new business should be ready to roll by end of February. Only thing holding it back is money which I won't have til the middle of Feb, this has always been my dream, to help women, people, I feel it's more important. Also I need to simplify my life a little, Between full time school, home schooling, my kids, my husband and believe it or not other people who depend on me(crazy to think they really care what I think, mostly I just listen)and all the other shit us wives and mothers do sometimes I feel overloaded, how do you all do it? What do you give up to do it all? I'm willing to give up cooking but the brats won't let me, I have made them take more responsibility over the house work and try to keep my mouth shut when it's not perfect. Something has to give and those sites are my first axe chop.

    Am I making in sense today or just rambling on and on? Thank the Universe I have all of you to keep me straight and in line! Until we meet again!

P.S. I can not get my time line on this to work right, I am eastern time in Indiana, so idk why it never says the right time!