A Day in My Life

        Hello friends,  I had tests all morning! Why does that wear me out so, maybe it just proves I need to use my brain more! So as a reward I went to Wal-Mart and got cleaning supplies it's time to do spring cleaning! Fun, well not fun but it feels good when it's all done and shiny clean-at least until the kids get home!
       I had to make Doctors appointments, Brock is really sick and Gloria came home from school saying she was having a hard time breathing, we did a breathing treatment on her and she's in bed resting but I can hear it coming, funny how that is that I know it(her being sick) before it gets bad. Veronica is sick too, hers like Brock are head colds. Problem with Gloria is she can go from just not feeling good to we're in the hospital again like a flash.
       I was reading a blog today-yes during English- and the blogger was talking about feeling guilty about passing down her Bipolar to her daughter. I tried to make her feel better, I hope I succeeded. I understand how she feels, I understand guilt, believe me I do.
       I have had my share: over both my girls having Arthritis, Gloria's having that and I.B.S, and Asthma, and everything she's had to go through, hell twenty years ago when we found out about Jon's Autism/Asperger's it
was assumed it was the mother's fault.
      This is what I've come to realize in my old age: guilt gets you no where, and it doesn't fix anything. After all would I not have had them if I knew in advance that they would be born this way? I don't honestly know, I do know that every single person has a purpose in this life/world we just have to figure out what that purpose is, that's the hard part. Maybe that's what friends and family are for, to help you see yourself as they see you.


      I had someone leave me a message about Woman to Woman and she said she had belonged to a group like that before where it ended up becoming very catty and with a bunch of know it all. I will not let that happen, I will be the first to admit I don't know it all. I'm not afraid to ask for help and I would never ever put up with know it all or cattiness( is that a word? Is now I guess).
     Thats one of the reasons I have FoxyMoron, YellowDog Granny and Intricate Knott there helping me too, I can't always be there and I don't want any one to feel alone--Also if they see me fuck up or not acting the way I should they will let me know and not nicely either!
     I hope that's reassuring to you. Also I have it so that any one on the forum can get a hold of me if they need to and for the most part it's you the member's who start the topic's to talk about. Well I better go take care of my sick kids. Until we meet again........

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No More Jello!

        Hello friends, I have come to realize, not for the first time mind you, that I just can not keep going on this way. That some how through all the shit that has happened this last year or so that I somehow lost ME and all the hard work in my past to get over he abuse and become strong person hasn't been lost so much as pushed aside and neglected. I haven't had time to care for myself.
      That is all changing now. I went to the Doctor and found out what was wrong with me (No iron, no calcium, no iodine). Basically I have got nothing in me to support my body-no wonder why it has been feeling like I'm walking through jello. I haven't been eating at sometimes for days, I never get hungry. So the Doctor gave me some meds to make me be hungry and I got iron pills etc. I started taking them Friday and honestly I'm feeling better already. I have even ate today! We talked about depression and I'm still don't think I am and neither does she, just to much stress.
        What I learned from this is that I was doing my husband a great injustice by trying to handle everything and trying to protect him. He wants to deal with some of this. So woo life should calm down now. Maybe? Don't know we'll see.
      Enough about me I got this message yesterday and since I don't know how to get in touch with this person I'm going to answer it here.

Anonymous has left a new comment on your post "Another Monday":

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I will also have to apologize by my language it was the only way I found to talk with you guys....
BYe BYe to all of you, Bye

       Maria I want you to know I appreciate your comment and that you are free to leave me any messages you want any time you want. Your English is fine. Don't apologize for it, you speak two languages I don't so you are way ahead of me. And if you do write a blog I would love to read it. Every person has a story to tell and all have something we can learn from. Everyone is welcomed in my blog world as long as their not hurting anyone else. So please contact me again and let me know if you have a blog and how to find it.
          I am so not one of those bloggers that think if your not in my click that I don't want to hear from you or read your blogs. I don't have a click--what is this high school? I respect everyone, as long as they respect others, and believe everyone has a right to their own opinions and beliefs.
       Yesterday I met this really great lady named Umari Ayim. I talked her her over ay Cyber Connect(where I'm featured this week, how cool is that?) She's from Africa, is a lawyer and so smart. That's one of the coolest things about blogging you get to meet people you never would in the' real' world.
       When I started blogging I only did it so I could put in words the pain that was in my heart, I needed to get it out. I never thought I would find the support and friendship that I did. I will always be grateful for Trish,Pat and Jackie who would leave comments that were never judging and always supportive and kind. Now if only the real world could always be this way.

      Thank you all how have me comments this week, and I hope this blog wasn't to much of a downer, so until we meet again.......

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