A Day in My Life

        Hello friends,  I had tests all morning! Why does that wear me out so, maybe it just proves I need to use my brain more! So as a reward I went to Wal-Mart and got cleaning supplies it's time to do spring cleaning! Fun, well not fun but it feels good when it's all done and shiny clean-at least until the kids get home!
       I had to make Doctors appointments, Brock is really sick and Gloria came home from school saying she was having a hard time breathing, we did a breathing treatment on her and she's in bed resting but I can hear it coming, funny how that is that I know it(her being sick) before it gets bad. Veronica is sick too, hers like Brock are head colds. Problem with Gloria is she can go from just not feeling good to we're in the hospital again like a flash.
       I was reading a blog today-yes during English- and the blogger was talking about feeling guilty about passing down her Bipolar to her daughter. I tried to make her feel better, I hope I succeeded. I understand how she feels, I understand guilt, believe me I do.
       I have had my share: over both my girls having Arthritis, Gloria's having that and I.B.S, and Asthma, and everything she's had to go through, hell twenty years ago when we found out about Jon's Autism/Asperger's it
was assumed it was the mother's fault.
      This is what I've come to realize in my old age: guilt gets you no where, and it doesn't fix anything. After all would I not have had them if I knew in advance that they would be born this way? I don't honestly know, I do know that every single person has a purpose in this life/world we just have to figure out what that purpose is, that's the hard part. Maybe that's what friends and family are for, to help you see yourself as they see you.


      I had someone leave me a message about Woman to Woman and she said she had belonged to a group like that before where it ended up becoming very catty and with a bunch of know it all. I will not let that happen, I will be the first to admit I don't know it all. I'm not afraid to ask for help and I would never ever put up with know it all or cattiness( is that a word? Is now I guess).
     Thats one of the reasons I have FoxyMoron, YellowDog Granny and Intricate Knott there helping me too, I can't always be there and I don't want any one to feel alone--Also if they see me fuck up or not acting the way I should they will let me know and not nicely either!
     I hope that's reassuring to you. Also I have it so that any one on the forum can get a hold of me if they need to and for the most part it's you the member's who start the topic's to talk about. Well I better go take care of my sick kids. Until we meet again........

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No More Jello!

        Hello friends, I have come to realize, not for the first time mind you, that I just can not keep going on this way. That some how through all the shit that has happened this last year or so that I somehow lost ME and all the hard work in my past to get over he abuse and become strong person hasn't been lost so much as pushed aside and neglected. I haven't had time to care for myself.
      That is all changing now. I went to the Doctor and found out what was wrong with me (No iron, no calcium, no iodine). Basically I have got nothing in me to support my body-no wonder why it has been feeling like I'm walking through jello. I haven't been eating at sometimes for days, I never get hungry. So the Doctor gave me some meds to make me be hungry and I got iron pills etc. I started taking them Friday and honestly I'm feeling better already. I have even ate today! We talked about depression and I'm still don't think I am and neither does she, just to much stress.
        What I learned from this is that I was doing my husband a great injustice by trying to handle everything and trying to protect him. He wants to deal with some of this. So woo life should calm down now. Maybe? Don't know we'll see.
      Enough about me I got this message yesterday and since I don't know how to get in touch with this person I'm going to answer it here.

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       Maria I want you to know I appreciate your comment and that you are free to leave me any messages you want any time you want. Your English is fine. Don't apologize for it, you speak two languages I don't so you are way ahead of me. And if you do write a blog I would love to read it. Every person has a story to tell and all have something we can learn from. Everyone is welcomed in my blog world as long as their not hurting anyone else. So please contact me again and let me know if you have a blog and how to find it.
          I am so not one of those bloggers that think if your not in my click that I don't want to hear from you or read your blogs. I don't have a click--what is this high school? I respect everyone, as long as they respect others, and believe everyone has a right to their own opinions and beliefs.
       Yesterday I met this really great lady named Umari Ayim. I talked her her over ay Cyber Connect(where I'm featured this week, how cool is that?) She's from Africa, is a lawyer and so smart. That's one of the coolest things about blogging you get to meet people you never would in the' real' world.
       When I started blogging I only did it so I could put in words the pain that was in my heart, I needed to get it out. I never thought I would find the support and friendship that I did. I will always be grateful for Trish,Pat and Jackie who would leave comments that were never judging and always supportive and kind. Now if only the real world could always be this way.

      Thank you all how have me comments this week, and I hope this blog wasn't to much of a downer, so until we meet again.......

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Bridgets butt is hanging low!

      Hello, friends I am so tired today I stayed up half the night making a new blog(uncross your eyes) this one is for Maggie, we aren't thrilled with Facebook and let's face it your limited on what you can do on it, as soon as YellowDog Grannie get's back with me and tells me how to put a Donation gadget on the site I want to put that on there. Katie has three other children besides Maggie and let's face it just the gas to get Maggie back and forth to all the Doctors appointments is a lot and all the medicines are costly even with insurance. I'm just going to put the button up and I will never ask you to donate that's your choice and business.
        I still have a little tweaking to do on Maggie's blog but I'm pretty happy with it just wish blogger offered more color choices, I tried to make it rainbow looking cause Maggie loves rainbows, and I wanted it to reflect her, not me, I'm just the writer. I'm going to use the blog to keep everyone informed of her progress and you can leave comments for her and I'm going to copy anything that's appropriate and put in this really cute scrape book I got her. And if you have any questions and your worried she will see them she won't unless their meant for her, so you can still ask me anything. I just hope people will come to it.
      OK I named it Maggie's Rainbow! in case my link didn't work  http://maggiesrainbow.blogspot.com And I even made her a button that you can 'steal' and put on your blog! I already have mine up. See? On the left. I added fishes cause Maggie like them and as soon as I can I'm going to try to find pictures of horses, and puppies too! I'm really worried that no one will show up there.
          I need something to make me laugh so I was going to save these for tomorrow because Gaelach was suppose to guest blog today but we got our wires crossed and she be here tomorrow. I do love and appreciate my loyal friends who read this every day and are always there to support me, I wish I could express what it means to me.

 


 

Bridget Does the Bed!

      I have been so lazy this weekend! And I don't even feel guilty about it, I locked myself in my bedroom, left orders for what the kids were to do(chores), put a do not disturb sign up and slept! When I did wake up I would read your blogs, watch TV and that's about it, except doing what home work that I absolutely had to do! I think it freaked out my kids and even their friends, they kept knocking on my door.
       I did get up this morning and make a huge breakfast, but told them to clean up afterwards. And I've done some laundry today, how does it build up so fast? And yes Dee I know I need to make "those kids" do more around the house. And I miss having coffee with you too, but have no desire to move to Texas(sorry, Yellowdog Grannie), no mater if you are wearing shouts in January! Now Australia yep, I would love to move there or maybe England, I have friends in both places, but only for half the year. If I move I'm taking Ishityounot with me! She needs some happiness in her life, besides can't you just see her on a road trip?! It would be a blast! I shit you not! lol
        Though for that mater taking YellowDog Grannie would be fun cause she'd keep us all laughing, and we'd have to take FoxyMoron because she's so organized and she's an awesome cook, and hell she needs a break too! So that settles it we all need a huge vacation without our families(and yes Dee you should come cause God knows someone will need to be the adult and keep us in line). Where should we go? Hum something to think about, right?
     OK I know it's not Veteran's day or anything but their on my heart heavy today for some reason.

      Sometimes I think we forget about them in our day to day lives. It's been going on for so long, and it's not just American's over there fighting. This has been going on for far to long, and really its time to send our people home. Seriously.
       Foxy, you should write all your recipes down, I would gladly pay for them! And YDG why did you stop that beautiful website full of good healthy food? You don't have to tell I'm just being noisy. If I haven't told you all I want you to know how much I appreciate all of you and your opinions mean the world to me! So until next time.....

Good Monday!

        Did you all have a good weekend? I know FoxyMoron did, I hope the rest of you all did too. I babysat my grandsons yesterday, my son in law John's mother had to have emergency surgery so they called and asked me to come over and watch them, I was happy to! Yay my grand babies all to myself! Let me tell you! My grandson Justice has ADD and he doesn't get his meds on weekends so that he will eat more and it's what the Doctor wants, and Jaxton is a year and a half, never stops moving! Don't get me wrong they are good boys, well mannered and behaved, just excited to have their Oma
there!  I went up and down those stairs at least a hundred times in the eight hours I was there! And those boys can eat! I feel for their parents when they hit the teen years! It would have been better if I had gotten more sleep before going there(Rick kept me up til four am, when do mens sex drive go down? TMI?). Still it was a lot of fun and a workout in one!
      OK I have learned my lessons friends no more recipes! Whenever I put one up I get no responses so OK no more. Except from FoxyMoron, thank you.
      No school today for the kids and I, thank you Martin Luther King! I'm planning on working on my homework and doing some in advanced that way if something happens this week(and when doesn't it?) I won't be scrambling to catch up. That's the plan we all know how that goes huh?
      Our snow is gone already, or will be by this afternoon, rain and in the 40's today. Rain the next few days:( I'd rather have snow. We've had a lot of rain this winter. I wish I could jump on a plane and go to Australia and go see FoxyMoron and bask in the warmth, I think we'd have a blast together, then to England to see my friend Pam, then go to see ishitunot, then off to see YellowDog Granny!  Now wouldn't that be a blast and expensive?! Well no more putting it off got to go study! No more hiding behind Bridget, back to reality! Until later!

I am Bridget, she is me?

         Hello my friends! It's snowing! Yay, I don't care cause I'm out of school til Tuesday, thanks to Martin L. King. I was beginning to think we'd never get snow or that it would get really cold, ya I know you'd think I'd want it to stay warm but nope I don't some of my plants won't come back as well if they don't have the cold, that's why peony's don't grow well in the south, though they do have different types the Southerner could try. Oops that's for a different blog isn't it? Silly me!
         I'm in a really good mood today, I made A's on all three of my test this week! Yay me. Even Bridget s proud of me,he he. OK well of course she is cause that's me, so I'm patting myself on the back! Twice this week I've had people talking to me on line that didn't know that I am her, she is me? Whichever you understand.
          I did something really nice for someone today, a girl in my math class still hasn't gotten her money for books and was falling behind, you can't do anything without the book, it has the code to get online where our math lab is, which is where we take all our test and do homework. The books cost 190.00(USD), so I bought it for her, she'll pay me back when her money comes in. And before you ask I didn't take anything away from my kids, or home, it was with my left over money from buying my books. I bought two used ones instead of new. And even if she doesn't pay me back I figured I put some good mojo(what is that anyway? out there and maybe it'll come to me triple!  I know what it's like not to have the money to get something you need, and feeling left behind and lost.
         On to a new subject! At school yesterday in my interpersonal, interconnected communication class(try saying that fast!) we were told we had to come up with a theme song that fit our personality's, life and how we see ourselves. Really. I have asked a few people what they think it should be and so far it's been: My friend Pam said 'That's What Friends are For', Cassie says it should be 'Thank You for Being a Friend', my friend Donna said 'I am Woman hear me Roar' my daughter Veronica said 'I'm a Bitch'(no she wasn't calling me a bitch it goes on to say "I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother" it's a good song and Crystal said 'Girls just want to Have fun'  Not all of them fit me, and none completely but it's a start. What do you think? Let me know your opinion!
        Hey, FoxyMoron I hope you have a great weekend! Have fun with your family! Bring pictures back with you!
        And Ishityounot  you need to check into a hotel and tell no one where you are and have a calm, long pampering weekend! You deserve it woman!
        Pam(veggie-chick,flowergirl) I'm so proud of you! Your making awesome progress, keep going, don't give up your almost there!
        Don't think I forgot you either YellowDog Granny!  Here's the cartoon's I told you I had! You need to join me on Facebook, these all came from crazy friends of mine!

        I hope you like these! Now all of you go on over to 'IN MY GARDEN' I added so really beautiful pictures on the sides of flower you and order, again not expensive, they will brighten up your flower beds! And I believe they will ship them over sea's and their on sale too! Also found some of the things I use that make my gardening easier! Until next time........

Life Goes On......and on

  So yep life goes on, you get knocked down, but you gotta get back up again, if for no other reason than your kids, family, friends need you. I will admit that for a little while I thought about taking down my other blogs, that doubt about my own abilities to sell anything and that all the energy and effort was waist of my time. Rick told me not to, at least not right away and see what happens, maybe I'll move it off blogger and onto a real website.

   It's funny how who I thought would be commenting over 'My Love Letter' didn't. And the who I never thought would did. Crazy. I know it was raw and probably hard to read, and maybe I should not have wrote it here, if I made any of you uncomfortable I'm sorry.

   I do want to thank those of you who reached out to try to comfort me, it meant a lot since there really isn't many people I can talk of her about. Maybe I'll do a private blog on her like FoxyMoron did for sweet baby girl. That way Hailey can go there and read and see her mom, it's a thought that will have to wait til I can deal with it.

   I took Gloria to her Doctors appointment today and she's doing really well. Though the Dr. wants me to take her to a Internist about her IBS and bleeding when she has a B.M. And though we've suspected for awhile it's been comfirmed
that Gloria has an Autoimmune disorder, same as Veronica. I got Hailey into the Doctors too, she hadn't had her shots for this year, and she's now signed up for school. Going to the apartment was hard and not going to deal with that mess yet. 
Tomorrow Lawyer and social worker, oh the fun never ends.

   Well I'm done rambling on, oh got some new coffee over on 'A Good Mornings Start' I am excited about it cause I love it and had to beg them to advertise on my little blog.  Until we meet again..........